Wednesday, July 5, 2017

Summertime in Minnesota

I have attempted to update this little space many times in the last few months – only resulting in about a dozen awkward started-but-never-finished drafts. I’m not sure if its been a question of whether or not I really want to keep writing, or just setting aside time. Regardless, Amy’s update finally inspired me to jump back in, because at the very least I like looking back on this record of memories and journal of life’s little moments.

Because that’s really what life is right now – a lot of little moments. Beckett turned 18-months a couple of weeks ago and I am still trying to wrap my mind around the fact that my baby is quickly becoming a little boy. At the same time I love watching him grow up. It is so fun to watch him figure out a situation or master a new skill. And about 90% of the time he is really a delight to be around. He loves to smile and laugh, be outside, read books, and listen to/make music.

I think our summer is going to end up pretty front-loaded. We started out with a busy bang – a week in Michigan visiting family, volunteering at our church VBS (well I volunteered while Beck had the full attention of 3 teenage girls who fiercely spoiled him), and a visit from 11 ofour favorite east-coasters (which really deserves a post of its own). Add a few date nights, playdates, and library story hours (which combine 3 of Beckett’s very favorite things – books, music, and BUBBLES), and the month flew by.

Right now July looks like a lot of walks around the neighborhood, happy hours on the porch, and time in the pool, which sounds perfect to me!

Photo credit goes to Susan Schmidt who took these when we were out visiting Maryland this spring - if you live in or near the DC area we highly recommend her!

Thursday, February 2, 2017

My February Survival Kit

So somehow my book loving self just discovered Modern Mrs.Darcy. I’m pretty much in heaven and have an unfathomable number of requests into the library. Plus she has a podcast, which is one of my favorite discoveries of 2016, so I’m doubly in heaven.

Anne recently posed a question that got me thinking:

“What is saving your life right now?”

What a great question for February. November I can handle because there is Thanksgiving and we are getting ready for the holiday season and we might still get a few days of fall. December I can handle because I love Christmas and Christmas decorations. Even January I can handle because I like jumping back into a routine/schedule after the holidays. And then February and March hit…..

So here’s my list:

1. My Faith: With the current politician climate and subsequent protests, rants on social media, and depressing news stories, my faith has truly been my saving grace over the last several months. God provided Brandon and I with a deep desire to seek him and relinquish our fears before the election and that has been an incredible blessing. For the first time in my life I really feel like I have an unquenchable desire to live for God – and I love it!

2. Brandon: Every day this man of mine amazes me. He works so hard for our family and is always looking for ways he can help or encourage me. We’ve had 2 close friends come to us this month with news that their marriages were really struggling, and I am so thankful for the strength of our relationship.

3. Beckett’s Smiles and Belly Laughs: Oh Beckett. I love our little toddler who is filled with SO much energy and curiosity. God is teaching me so much about patience through him. But no matter what kind of day we are having, when Beckett lets out a smile and giggle it melts my heart – every. single. time.

4. Sea Salt Chocolate Chip: My daily vice. Almost every day during Beckett’s afternoon nap I sit down to a sea salt chocolate chip cookie. I make a batch every couple of weeks and then put them in the freezer (because I like them either hot out of the oven or frozen). Brandon doesn’t really eat sweets so I will literally eat the entire batch on my own. They’re delicious.

5. IF: Gathering Leadership Team: Back in the fall I was asked to be a part of our church’s leadership team for the IF: Gathering. Being a stay-at-home mom is great, but as the gathering approaches, I’ve found that I also love having some more intellectual projects to work through. The group of ladies on the committee are wonderful and it has been such an encouraging and stimulating thing to be a part of. (Also the conference is going to be amazing and you should absolutely go – look here to find a site near you!)

6. Lindsay: Lindsay is my neighbor who became a stay-at-home-mom around the same time I did and has 2 little boys. Lindsay is truly a gift from God. When the post-nap pre-dinner witching hour hits our house we head over to Lindsay’s (or vice versa). And watching our little guys form friendships already is pretty much the cutest thing ever.

7. Our Church Community: Living away from family is hard. I am so thankful we have found a church that we love and a community that supports us in so many ways. The friends we’ve made, the bible studies and mom’s group we’re a part of, the teaching we are receiving is all so rejuvenating and life giving.

8. Athleta Leggings: I bought a pair of leggings from Athleta at the advice of my sister-in-law last year (I was mourning the loss of my favorite maternity leggings) and have lived in them ever since. No joke. I’m pretty sure I wear them 4-5x a week without shame – they are that comfortable.

9. Facetime: Like I mentioned before, living away from family is hard. But facetime makes it SO much easier! I’m extremely close to my mom, and Beckett and I probably facetime with her 5-6x a week. Even if it’s just for a few minutes I love that she and my dad can see Beck (and vice versa) and check out his new skills. I have such a love/hate relationship with technology…

10. Podcasts: Like I said, one of my new favorite discoveries of this last year. When Beckett is napping and I’m doing chores around the house or working out I love listening to something. I used to love listening to a morning radio show on the way to work – and podcasts are like the best of that – talk without the music breaks (because I get sick of the same songs over and over again), on a topic of your choice, on demand.

So there you go! Ten things that are saving my life right now – what about you?

Thursday, January 19, 2017

Serving God at Home

This past week a woman in my bible study shared her frustration - for months/years she has felt the Lord preparing her for mission work, and yet doors continue to close. We talked a little more and she shared that while opportunities for international work weren't panning out, she had had numerous opportunities to serve her family over the last few months. I challenged her with a truth I've been learning over the past several years - what if her heart for missions isn't meant to be fulfilled internationally, but in her own backyard? What if the community God was calling her to reach were her own friends and family - her own city and neighborhood?

10 years ago I headed to college with big dreams - I had developed a passion for international rights work and thought maybe God was calling me overseas. I spent some time in Kenya and my eyes were opened to a world of overwhelming poverty and despair. But then I attended law school in the city I grew up in and started looking at the suffering in my own backyard. It might look different than it did in Africa, but it was still fierce and prevalent. 

Kenya, 2009

Then I met my husband and God made it clear that he was calling us to Minnesota. Wait. Minnesota?!? I had pictured myself in Africa, D.C., Detroit....but Minnesota? We weren't even living in the inner city, but suburbia! I figured maybe this was a stop-over, a season of life where God was strengthening our marriage and trust in him, rather than a time of answering any "missional" call.

I was so naive. Wherever we are we are surrounded by others who need to know the love and saving grace of Jesus. Currently, Brandon and I are learning the art of "neighboring" - asking ourselves what does it truly mean to love our neighbors? While some attend church, we've quickly realized that many of those going through the steps of practicing a religion are drastically at a loss for a true relationship with Christ. Being a stay-at-home-mom gives me an incredible opportunity to reach out to our neighbors on a regular basis (i.e. our 4 pm daily walks, playgroups, book club, visiting elderly neighbors, etc.).

Neighborhood Playgroup

Additionally, in a world where it is increasingly considered hateful to disagree with someone or hold fast to conservative biblical beliefs, God is teaching me to love, but remain bold in my beliefs with those I encounter on a daily basis. 

"I have obeyed the voice of the Lord. I have gone on the mission on which the Lord sent me."
1 Samuel 15:20

While it might not seem as glamorous as the global mission field, remember that your neighborhood and community are just as important.

Wednesday, December 21, 2016

I Blinked


One year ago I went to work, visited my midwife, walked 3 miles on the treadmill, made Italian sausage soup for supper, ate dinner with Brandon, watched a little Project Runway, and then almost delivered a baby on the way to the hospital!

This year has truly been amazing. Words truly can't express the joy Beckett brings to our little family.  Even during the most trying moments I am often struck with awe that God gifted us this little man - that he is a part of me and the man I love the most in the world.

And I'm not going to lie, I love being his favorite. I love being the one who can comfort him and who he turns to first for snuggles or kisses (until his Daddy walks in the door after work - then I'm old news!).

Currently Beckett:

- weighs approximately 23 lbs and stands almost 30 inches tall
- crawls all over the place - mostly on his hands and feet (like a walking downward dog)
- pulls himself to standing and loves to cruise around the couch, coffee table, bathtub, etc.
- eats absolutely everything - although he's not a huge fan of peaches or cottage cheese
- hasn't shown any signs of separation anxiety (knock on wood), mostly he loves being around other people and will happily share a smile with anyone he crosses paths with
- is a champion sleeper at night....naps are hit or miss but he will happily talk or sing to himself in his crib during his nap time if he doesn't fall asleep
- loves to play with anything with wheels
- babbles constantly and hasn't said "mama" and "dada" but doesn't use them consistently
- loves swimming in the the bathtub more than anything else!

Happy Birthday sweet boy!

Monday, October 10, 2016

Creating a Family Mission Statement

When Brandon and I were engaged he tossed out the idea of creating a family mission statement. I hadn't really heard of the idea before, but had seen pallet signs stating "house rules" popping up in craft stores and around Pinterest and was intrigued with doing something similar.

During our first year of marriage we had quite a few conversations about what we wanted our family "values" to be. We knew from the start that we wanted the mission of our family to be to serve God and others, but talked a lot about what we thought that looked like from a practical level and how we could implement it into our daily lives.

Here are some of the general notes we came up with:

Mission Statement:

- To know and radiate God's love
- To become a family after God's own heart
- To build up treasure in Heaven
- To represent Christ in all things

Family Vision:

To not fear or despair about growing old


- Invest in relationships
- Practice gratitude
- Show hospitality
- Use resources creatively to further God's kingdom, promote justice on earth, and build relationships
- Mind your attitude
- Be present
- Train children in order to give them increasing amounts of freedom and responsibility (assume responsibility and freedom)
- Laugh
-Value experiences over stuff
- Accept and give God's love
- Develop your character
- Appreciate beauty
- Dwell on excellence

These were such fun conversations to have! They encouraged us to talk about our faith walks, upbringings, and our hopes and dreams for the future.

Ultimately we ended up selecting several values that we felt best described the mission we desired for our family and this past summer we worked with BetweenYouAndMeSigns to create a piece of art to display these values in our home. Not only is this sign one of my favorite pieces in our home, but it is prominently displayed in our dining room - making it one of the first things visitors see when they enter our house and something we look at as a family multiple times a day (in passing and at every meal!).

Whether you have a well established family or are just starting out, I would highly encourage you to take time with your spouse and/or children and create a family mission statement for your home!

" for me and my house, we will serve the LORD." Joshua 24:15

Friday, August 19, 2016

Simple Joys

Last night I gathered with several women from my church for one of my new favorite bi-monthly traditions - a recipe swap! We each bring a favorite dish and share a meal together.  While talking one Sunday, several of us realized we all had tons of recipes pinned on Pinterest, but often didn't get around to actually trying them! This has been a great way to taste some of those recipes and find out what is really good before trying it out on our families :) One of the ladies gathers the recipes beforehand and has them printed, hole punched, and ready to insert into some colorful binders bought for the occasion. While it's been a fun way to find some great new recipes, my favorite thing has become just getting to know some new friends!

Since many of us are young moms or newlyweds, conversation typically centers around the little ones in our life, marriage, and faith (i.e. last night several of us realized that ironing is at the top of our dreaded chore list - but our husbands don't mind it at all!). Last night we decided to try something new and pulled out some of the IF:Gathering Conversation Cards. My favorite question of the night turned out to be: "What is something simple that brings you joy?"

We talked about how it's easy to come up with the big things in life that bring you joy - vacations, holidays, date nights, etc., but what about the little everyday things? Are you even on the lookout for what those little things are?

Some of the answers included:

- "Mail Dates" - a couple's nightly walk out to the mailbox and around the house after their kids are tucked in for the night
- A good cup of coffee
- Sweets!
- Quiet time when all the kids manage to nap at the same time

My answer was walks - especially our Sunday family walks. Almost every afternoon Beckett and I head out for a walk after his afternoon nap and before Brandon comes home. Both of us love getting outside and I love to take in the silence or listen to a sermon/podcast while Beck engages in some intense people/animal watching. We live in the middle of a great park system and are blessed to have several trails through the woods and around parks and ponds right at our fingertips. Back in the spring, Brandon and I started heading out every Sunday afternoon for a family walk. Most of the time Brandon loves to choose a new location for us to try (ranging from local park reserves, one of the numerous lakes in our area, or around Brandon's childhood neighborhood :)), but sometimes we will just end up wandering around our neighborhood. I love this tradition and the time it gives us to connect as a couple while being active together!

While I didn't share it last night, I was thinking this morning that one of the other simple joys in my life is getting Beckett up in the morning and from his naps. These days, 95% of the time he wakes up with a big smile and is often talking to himself when I come into the room.

What about you? What is something simple that brings you joy?

Monday, August 8, 2016

Lasting Lessons From My Single Years

10 years ago I was getting ready to start my freshman year of college. I was excited to start a new school where I was convinced I would meet my new best friends and future soul mate. While I didn't go to college to get my "MRS" degree, meeting my future spouse was definitely at the forefront of my mind. After all, my parents and siblings had all left college engaged, and wasn't a Christian college the perfect place to meet a man who would share my values, morals, and faith?

Except things didn't work the way I had planned. Instead, the next four years included many seasons of embarrassment, depression, and even jealousy as I watched many of my friends get engaged while I stood by wondering if my dream of become a wife and mother would ever come true.

And in God's timing it did. 

But what I don't want this to be is a post written by a married woman just reflecting back on her single years and stating how she should have acted. After all, I'm married now, I got what I wanted, didn't I? It's pretty easy for me to look back on a difficult season of my life and say how I should have acted knowing how things turned out. Instead, I hope this is a point where I share some lessons that I learned during those difficult years that continue to impact me as a married woman today - lessons that I hope might encourage other women - married and single alike.

Freshman year of college....who wouldn't want to marry me?!

(1) Being married isn't better than being single.

I don't think this is said enough, particularly in conservative Christian circles where young women are often raised to believe that our role is to become dedicated wives and mothers (maybe less in more secular circles). To become such is a beautiful, wonderful thing and was always my deepest desire. But because this was my dream, and what I thought was "better," I spent many many years feeling as though I was "less than" because I was single. I wondered what was wrong with me.

I've frequently heard well intentioned individuals tell single women to use their single years as a season of preparation for marriage. Serve others and prepare yourself to be a wife or mother. And while homemaking skills are important, I think this directive gives off the wrong message - it is reiterating that marriage is the ultimate goal, and that there is something wrong with being single.

When in fact, there is nothing wrong with being single, and God never promises us marriage! Our only goal in life should be to serve God and love others to the best of our ability - not marriage. We need to recognize that God will meet our needs, but not necessarily all of our desires. Being married isn't better than being single, it's just different.

[Y]ou are all one in Christ Jesus.
Galatians 3:28

But I promised this post wasn't just about looking back and saying "what if." Consequently, I think this lesson can be applied to so many other areas - just switch the phrasing around...."being  _____ isn't better than being ____." Gender, race, age, occupation, financial status, spiritual gift, etc. Comparison is dangerous, and it is so easy to falsely apply worth to how we compare ourselves/our circumstances to others.

My college roommates - at the time this picture was taken I was the only one not in a serious relationship. Within the next year and a half all 4 were engaged.

(2) Living in the future makes you lose sight of the present.

I spent so much time during my single years reflecting on why I was single, being frustrated with the fact that I was single, and looking for a potential future spouse that it makes me wonder what leadings of the Holy Spirit I cast aside? What opportunities did I miss because I was too focused on my earthly desires vs. God's heavenly plan?

Never be afraid to trust an unknown future to a known God
Corrie TenBoom

Your single years are an incredible opportunity to serve others. As a wife and mother I still love looking for ways to serve, but the reality is that my first priority is my family. Honestly, the single women I know who are the most content are those who are actively engaged in serving their families, churches, and communities. 

As a married women this is a lesson I continue to remind myself of! I frequently get caught up in thinking, "I can't wait until _____ is over" (i.e. Brandon's work schedule is lighter, an event has passed, Beckett has reached a new stage). Of course the problem is that when I think this way, I end up missing out on the daily happenings and seeing God in the ordinary.

One of my favorite things during my single years was taking the time to invest in the lives of my nieces and nephew.

(3) Being married doesn't solve all your problems.

While I don't think I really believed that marriage would solve all of my problems, I think I was pretty sure it would alleviate most of them! And to some extent it has - but only to be replaced by the new challenges that come along with being a spouse and mother!

I recently heard a sermon where the pastor said, "if the grass looks greener on the other side - it's time to water your own grass!"

These guys bring me so much joy, and continuously challenge me in new ways!

(4) There are some things in life you can't control, and if you try to force them you might end up worse off.

For some singleness is not just a life stage, but God's ultimate plan. For a time in my life I was not willing to recognize this as a possibility for my future. Consequently, I stayed in a relationship much longer than I should have because it was comfortable, safe, and I knew would eventually lead to marriage. But it wasn't right, and by holding on as long as I did I ended up causing a lot more pain than necessary. It was only after I fully surrendered my future to the Lord and was truly content with being single that I met my husband, and only at that point in time did I realize how much my prior relationship was lacking, and how difficult a marriage to that individual (although he is a wonderful, compassionate, Christian man who I deeply respect) would have been.

I recently re-read Corrie TenBoom's The Hiding Place, and was moved by the way she and her sister Betsey didn't reflect on their singleness as something negative, but seemed to embrace it as a way through which God molded their character and drew them to him.

Brandon during his single years

Ultimately, if you are single, my biggest piece of advice would be to recognize your worth. You are loved and cherished regardless of your relationship status and are fully complete in your relationships with Christ alone! (Colossians 2:10)