"There is a time for everything,
and a season for every activity under the heavens:
a time to be born and a time to die,
a time to plant and a time to uproot,
a time to kill and a time to heal,
a time to tear down and a time to build,
a time to weep and a time to laugh,
a time to mourn and a time to dance,
a time to scatter stones and a time to gather them,
a time to embrace and a time to refrain from embracing,
a time to search and a time to give up,
a time to keep and a time to throw away,
a time to tear and a time to mend,
a time to be silent and a time to speak,
a time to love and a time to hate,
a time for war and a time for peace."
The last few months have been riddled with monumental changes in what I thought was my solid life and future. For the last several weeks I've hesitated as to whether or not to blog about them, but at the end of the day, this blog has become a sort of journal for me - as well as an opportunity to share my faith...and a life is never all highs is it?
Since the beginning of this blog a large part of my life has revolved around a very important relationship in my life. However, at the end of this past summer, Justin and I decided to part ways. After nearly three years together, this was not an easy, nor a rushed decision, but in the end we both agreed it was what needed to happen.
Consequently the last few weeks have been a roller coaster of emotions. Saying goodbye, finding my bearings again, getting used to a new social life, etc. Friends and family have been amazing, and I feel blessed to say that I have felt complete peace. Are there things that I would do differently - yes, and maybe I will blog about those someday, but I don't regret my time with Justin or the memories that were made. He was my rock and support through some of the most difficult times of my life, and for that I will be forever grateful. I know we both walked away with an incredible respect for one another and each other's families. I will never have anything bad to say about him, and I know we both truly wish the best for each other.
The last few months have been such a journey for me - losing both my grandparents, ending things with Justin, having a best friend move away, starting my final year of law school, etc. I believe they have also been a test of how I will respond to God and what faith really means. I am amazed at how I am continually challenged to lean on Christ and how often I struggle to relinquish control to him.
Just when I think I know how my story is all going to be laid out - God throws in another curveball.
But at the same time and through all the frustrations and tears I can see God at work. In fact, in the last week I have caught myself smiling more than ever and praising His goodness - sometimes His blessings just don't come in exactly the way we were expecting....but those stories are for another time. :)
God is good all the time, ALL the time, God is good.