Sunday, December 27, 2015

Our Christmas Blessing

Last Monday, and right on his due date, Beckett James joined our family! God truly blessed us with an incredibly smooth (and fast!) labor and delivery. There was a few moments where we thought Beckett might be born on the way to the hospital, but we made it just in time :)

Beck spent a few days in the special care nursery due to some respiratory challenges from coming so fast, but all is well and we were discharged and home in time to celebrate our first Christmas Eve together!

We are so in love! This truly is a Christmas we will never forget!

Sunday, December 6, 2015

Nursery Reveal

One of the nice things with moving a few months before Baby R was due is that we had some time to tackle house projects before the weather changed and my due date arrived. However, as first time naive homeowners, we didn't realize how quickly our list would grow, or how much longer than anticipated some of the projects would take.

But just after Thanksgiving we were able to say the nursery was "done" and ready to welcome our little man!

Before we found out that we had a little boy on the way I knew I wanted to stick with mostly neutral colors that could be re-used for (hopefully many) brothers or sisters down the line. So we went with a grey and white color scheme overall and then added navy and deep red accents to man things up a little bit and add a pop of color.

We were so blessed with furniture gifted to us by family and handed down by friends that the biggest to-do project ended up being painting a formerly (dark) wood dresser/changing table white....and about 5 coats of paint later we got there!

My splurge for this nursery was the curtains. Had I been more motivated I'm sure I could have made some that were fairly similar and significantly cheaper. But between moving, several trips out of town, numerous baby showers, and trying to balance work/rest for my back, it was simply easier to watch for sales and buy these from Pottery Barn! 

The nursery is unique in that the former owners actually cut out a space between the wall dividing the master bedroom and this room and inserted french doors. While the set-up may be a little different, we've found that we really like it so far and *think it will be great once baby arrives as well. But for privacy we did buy a set of room-darkening curtains to cover these doors as well.

One of my favorite parts of this room are these bookshelves that Brandon installed. Thank you Pinterest! They are actually picture ledges from ikea (note - some tutorials suggest using spice racks, but we found these picture shelves to work better - they came pre-painted and were easier to install!). Many of our friends and family know of our love for books and our little guy has consequently been gifted with quite the library! This is a fun way for book storage that allows for easy access and using the books as wall art.

Finally, you should really take note of the sweet quilt that was the perfect final addition to the nursery. The backstory of how the quilt came to be is here (along with much better pictures of the quilt in its entirety), and we couldn't be more thankful for the loving hands that made it!

And so now, at 38 weeks and 3 cm dilated we sit back and wait (or attempt to do so patiently when I'm not impulsively cleaning or eating everything in sight :)).

Tuesday, September 15, 2015

House Hunting B and J Style

As of Friday Brandon and I are officially first-time homeowners! (well together that is, Brandon was a homeowner at one time back in his bachelor days) I would say we are very excited, a little anxious, and about 75% packed.

I’ve always been an avid House Hunters fan. In fact, since Brandon and I don’t have cable, I’ve unabashedly planned my gym workouts around HGTV’s programming schedule :)  Brandon has always been an avid fan as well, and because of this I thought our house hunting process would be a fairly smooth journey.

HAH! I was so na├»ve…..

Over the last 3 years that we’ve been together, Brandon and I have loved taking walks through old and new neighborhoods and houses – admiring architecture, design, and character. I’ve learned that Brandon loves Tudors, while I prefer a craftsman style home, and while I check out the pantry and closet situation, Brandon’s first question is where would he put a library.

But actual house hunting with a budget and deadline was a little less romantic than our date nights wandering historical neighborhoods.

I went into our house hunting process with 4 “I’d really likes.” Not non-negotiables, but strong desires. They were:
                1. Not on or backing up to a busy road
                2. 3-4 bedrooms
                3. Private outdoor space
                4. Vaulted or higher ceilings in the main living area

Honestly I thought this was a pretty realistic list.

Brandon’s list was, well now that I think about it I don’t think he actually had a list. He had more of a go-with-the-flow-I’ll-know-it-when-I-feel-it approach. If it was in the budget, I think he really would have loved a renovated Tudor style home or to do a new build.

As we started house hunting, I quickly learned a few additional things about my self:

1. I hate split levels. With a passion.
2. Location and natural light matter to me more than I thought.
3. I like houses with a little more character that are in older, more developed neighborhoods with mature trees
4. Attempting long house-hunting days during my first trimester of pregnancy when all I wanted to do was sleep or lose my breakfast was not the best plan of attack

But ultimately, God answered so many of our prayers. In an extremely limited, sellers market we found a home we love, were able to negotiate and get it under list price and our budget, and worked with some sellers who were willing to negotiate a closing date around our apartment lease. Not only that, but we ended up with a home that pretty much has all of the things on my wish list. Granted it has some pretty unique quirks as well, but we’ll just call that the “character” I love so much!

And thanks to my in-laws who are master packers, we are well on our way to seeing the end of our apartment days (woo-hoo!!). Now all we have to do is some repairs, painting, and cleaning and the new house, clean and finish packing up the apartment, and squeeze in a week of vacation before our official move in date at the beginning of next month….

Wednesday, September 2, 2015

As the Scale Goes Up

If you’ve read this blog for any length of time, you know that I’m fairly open about my journey with anorexia during my late teen years. While I was ecstatic to find out that Baby R was on the way, I was also a little nervous as to how I would mentally handle the physical changes that were to come.

Baby R - 24 weeks

And I would be lying if I said that I was having no problems with the weight gain that necessarily comes along with pregnancy. I’ve felt my stomach lurch when the scale has hit numbers I’ve never seen before, I’ve struggled comparing my size to other pregnant women at the same stage (am I too big? Too small?), and I’ve battled with trying to maintain a healthy diet while not obsessing about what I’m eating.

But there are a few things that have really helped along this journey:

1) Remembering that my body is not my own. God has granted me the gift of carrying a precious child, and that child’s need come first. Seeing my weight go up is a lot easier when I remember that it’s for the precious life growing inside of me.

2) Exercise regularly. Not only is regular exercise important for pregnancy, but I’ve found that it has significant mental and physical rewards. Even though I’m gaining weight, I know it’s the good kind.

3) Balanced eating. Like regular exercise, I’ve found that balanced eating helps me remember that the weight I’m gaining is good and healthy for my body and the baby. I’ve stuck to our family’s typical eating plan of primarily whole foods with lots of fruits and veggies – I just take extra servings and add in snacks! Numerous studies show that the saying “your eating for two” is a complete myth – considering one of you is the size of a blueberry for quite a bit of time. Instead, a pregnant woman needs only to increase her caloric intake by 300-500 calories a day depending on her starting weight and trimester. Of course I do have a regular dose of chocolate :) but it’s all about keeping things balanced.

4) Get some maternity clothes you are excited about! I thought it would be challenging to grow out of the majority of my clothes, but I’ve secretly loved it! Not only did it mean that there was finally some visible indication of the life growing inside of me, but I also had some super cute maternity clothes that I had been looking forward to growing into! You can find a lot of cute (yes even great inexpensive options) maternity clothes out there. It’s going to happen – so embrace it!

5) Be open and honest with your doctor. Let your obgyn or midwife know about your history and if any challenges or concerns arise. Personally, I find it helpful to check my weight once a week so I ensure I’m gaining enough, but for others it might be better just do do a weight check at the doctor’s office, and maybe only have the doctor know the actual number.

6) Be open and honest with your spouse. Brandon knows my challenges and I’m very honest when I’m having a hard day. He constantly affirms me and challenges me. He is my biggest prayer warrior and teammate.

7) Stay strong spiritually. My identity is not in my physical attributes, but in that I am a child of God who has given me the incredible, amazing gift of carrying a precious baby – and you can bet I’ll never take that for granted!

Wednesday, August 5, 2015

Little Mr. or Miss.?

A week ago Brandon and I headed to the doctor's office for our 19-week ultrasound. My parents had come out to Minnesota for a visit and we decided it would be perfect timing to find out if Baby R was a boy or a girl.

Now there was some heated debate about whether or not we would find out the baby's gender. Type A personality that I am, I wanted to know from the beginning. Brandon wasn't quite so sure. But once we started talking names and making plans he quickly changed his mind.

Our ultrasound was on a Monday afternoon. On Sunday we found ourselves agreeing on a girl name (you should gasp at this piece of news because it was quite an achievement!) Not only did we agree on a name, but Brandon decided that he loved this name so much that he desperately decided he wanted the baby to be a girl. (you should again gasp because my husband has been talking of nothing but little league and tonka trucks since we found out we were expecting) 

I had been convinced since day 1 that we were having a girl, so happy that my husband finally seemed more open about the idea, I headed into the doctor's office.

My parents came into the ultrasound room with us, but we asked them to look away when the tech showed us the gender so that we could share the news with both sets of parents later that evening. Let me say, the ultrasound was absolutely incredible! I am so thankful for the technology that allowed us to see our very active little one in utero - God's handy work is truly amazing, and getting a glimpse into what "knitting together in your mother's womb" looks like was a life changing moment.

And then came the moment the get a peek at whether we would be stocking the shelves with pink or blue. Mom and Dad looked away, buy my mom managed to snap this picture right when Brandon and I realized what we were expecting:

Needless to say, after hearing our gasps and seeing our massive smiles at the clarity of our baby's gender, they were pretty sure they had a grandson on the way!

And according to our ultrasound tech - she is 99.999% positive we will be welcoming a son this December!

Brandon and I were shocked....and ecstatic....and more shocked! 

Now the only question that remains is whether our little man will take after his chubby blond hair, blue eyed daddy....

or his lanky dark hair, brown eyed momma!

We can't wait to find out!

Thursday, July 23, 2015

Slowly Growing

Post workout bump pic (excuse the sweat, they have the best mirrors there :))

I tend to  have this idealistic view at the beginning of summer - imagining lazy days, lots of books read, dinner outside, and extra time with family and friends. In reality, before I know it the days are packed, work makes lazy days not quite as possible, and there doesn't seem to be nearly enough time to see all the family and friends that we want to!

It doesn't help that Brandon and I kicked house hunting into full gear in May. We'd spent quite a bit of time up in the air questioning about whether on not we will stay in Minnesota long term. After some spring trips back to Michigan, it was evident how much we missed our family. But, God has made it SO clear that Minnesota is the place for us right now - this past year has been amazing and we have been so blessed by finding a church we love and building relationships with friends and Brandon's extended family. Renting just doesn't make sense long term, so the house hunting began!

Interestingly, after a day of looking at 9 split levels that I hated, we found a house we loved and put an offer down that night (the market is so hot right now here that if it's a good house, it's going within a day or two of being up for sale). But foundation issues made us wary and we backed out a few days later. After a couple of weeks break (I was getting a little overwhelmed), we found a house we loved even more than the first and managed to come in under budget! The inspection was just this week and we are in final negotiations with the sellers right now.

Our house to be! 

In the meantime, our days have been full of enjoying watching our little one slowly grow (more like watching my belly button go from being an inny to an outie) and planning for the events this fall and winter will bring! 

Tuesday, June 16, 2015

Do We Have Anymore Watermelon?

I will freely admit it - before getting pregnant I was a total skeptic about pregnancy cravings and food aversions. Sure I knew morning sickness was real, but how could one thing sound amazing one day and horrible the next? I figured it was just an excuse to eat whatever you wanted.

And then our sweet Tuppy made its appearance (and yes, we currently refer to our baby-to-be as "Tuppy", thanks to our amazing friend's tradition of in-utero nicknames, and the brilliance of Jeeves and Wooster).

So far I can no longer stand to eat or smell peanuts, trail mix (which I used to eat almost every day), pretzels, saltines (theoretically because this was all I ate for a week), or sweets (which I also used to eat every day).

Alternatively, I cannot get enough watermelon, bagels, or frosted flakes. I've gone through a whole watermelon a week for the last 3 weeks by myself (thank goodness they've been on sale...).

I'm pretty sure I haven't bought sugared cereal since college. This week I came home with 3 boxes (granted one was Raisin Bran - that's kindof healthy right??).

The first week after we found out I was pregnant all I could stomach was chicken - now I'm dreaming of medium-rare hamburgers. Why is it you want but you cannot have?

So for all of you doubters out there, I'm telling you - the cravings are real!

And so the journey begins...

Friday, June 12, 2015

The Curse of Being a Voracious Reader

From as early on as I can remember I have devoured books like chocolate chip cookies. They are one of my favorite things and I simply can’t get enough! My parents used to tease me by saying that along with teaching me about life, they had to train me in “book manners.” It was common to hear them say “Julianne, put your book down and talk to the other people in the car!” Or, “No, you may not bring a book into the restaurant.”

Normally I’m extremely grateful for this gift and my love of books, but I’ve recently realized there are numerous downsides as well…

1. My favorite authors can’t keep up with me.

When I find an author I love I will obsessively read through every book they’ve ever written, and then anxiously stalk their website to determine when their next release is scheduled. This is particularly frustrating if the author is writing a consecutive series.

2. Going on vacation is a heavy burden.

It’s not vacation for me if I don’t have a few good books to read. And by few, I mean a lot. Growing up, I was the youngest of 3 and a lot of vacations in my middle/high school years were just my parents and me. We would head to the beach, up north, or a lake and they would plop me down by the water with a stack of books – I was happy for hours. Of course, this also meant trekking along enough books to keep me occupied. Thankfully, having a kindle has made my traveling load a little lighter.

3. Library fines.

Typically I am a fairly punctual person, but when it comes to using the library, I have an inability to return things on time. When it’s one or two books at a time it’s no big deal, but there was that time I had 30 books over 2 weeks late…

4.There aren’t enough good books in the world.

You may call me a cynic, or claim that I simply haven’t broadened my horizons enough, but for all the books that have been written, there are some pretty bad ones out there. I read through the goods ones so fast, that it seems like I spend the majority of my time scraping the bottom of the barrel. Last night I was asking my mom for suggestions, but I’d already read the 8 she came up with. The flip-side is that I love to re-read books. Brandon thinks this is incredibly strange, particularly since I rarely like to re-watch a movie that I’ve seen before, but I never mind spending time reconnecting with characters I’ve fallen in love with. Plus, I read so much that if I wait long enough, I generally forget the ending J

And for all of you who are wondering at this point, no I don’t just skim or speed read, I do retain what I actually read…in fact I always scored the highest on the reading comprehension parts of standardized tests.

But while there are downfalls, I’m grateful for my parents for instilling this love of reading in me from such an early age – and yes, I’m already scouring my childhood library, garage sales, and amazon to build up our little one’s library!

So - do you have any recommendations??

Monday, June 8, 2015

The Reason Behind the Silence

This  blog has been way to quiet for quite awhile now. Part of that reason is because I hate just posting fluffy posts - I'd rather have nothing than something I'm not happy with. But the bigger, more exciting reason is because a lot has been going on for our family recently...

Brandon and I are SO excited to share that God has chosen to bless us with a sweet little one this December!

I'm just at 12 weeks right now, and it feels great to be finishing up the first trimester, but it's been a tough few months! From the very beginning I've struggled with heavy nausea and exhaustion. With working full time it's about all I can handle to come home and cook dinner before I'm down for the night. Brandon has been an incredible blessing!

Our journey to this point is one worth sharing sometime, but the short of it is that after fully embracing handing our family planning over to God, we are excited for the adventures to come!

"For this child I have prayed, and the Lord has granted the desires of my heart."
1 Samuel 1:27

Thursday, April 23, 2015

A World I Never Saw Before

For several years one of my biggest fears has been having and raising a child with a disability.

I grew up next door to a family whose youngest child had autism. She was barely able to communicate or care for herself and I saw the stress her parents were under as they attempted to create a "normal" environment for their other children, while meeting their daughter's physical and emotional needs. 

Growing up, I was taught the basic social rules for encountering someone with an obvious disability - don't stare, don't gawk, don't probe or ask impolite questions. While I'm sure my parents were well meaning, and I do believe that it's impolite to stare, the truth is that in practicing these "manners," I developed the mindset that there was something to fear or be embarrassed about for those classified as "disabled."

In my college years I knew several classmates majoring in special education. I always admired their drive and calling, but secretly thought "I could never do that."

Apparently God thought this wasn't a satisfactory answer, and in the last two years he has been transforming my heart and opening my eyes to a community I never stopped to see before.

First, came the birth of our sweet friend Addison. Born with down syndrome, Addison has shown me that God makes no mistakes, and that the labels and limitations the medical community and society may assign someone don't have to mean anything. In turn, Addison's parents and siblings have shown me that raising a child with a disability is nothing to be afraid of. I've seen the worry and stress that Addison's diagnosis has added to their lives, but I've also seen the joy and pride. They've set high expectations for their almost 2 year-old and do everything in their power to help him reach each milestone and ensure that he feels loved. 

Then I stumbled across a job description on a nonprofit website. I say stumble because that truly is a case. It was for a position I didn't think I was interested in, or had any knowledge in - working with young adults with autism and learning differences. But I felt called to applied and subsequently interview. At the end of my first interview I came home transformed. The passion of the staff and the energy and community of the students was incredible. 

The last few months have been amazing. While the organization I work for isn't Christian, everyday I see God at work. I see him in the teachers and advisors who tell their students that they can succeed and focus on their strengths. I see him in the students who accept one another's differences with true patience and understanding. And I see him in myself as I recognize the power of giving hope to a family who thought they'd reached the end of the line.

I could go on forever, but I think this video clip from our recent Gala explains things a lot better. Trevor is a junior (we are a 3 year life skills college) and gave an incredible speech this year (please note that our Gala theme this year was "A Night at the Movies " - thus Trevor's A Knight's Tale costume :)).

So what do I think now?

I think an illogical fear has kept me from getting to know some amazing people. More importantly, having and raising a child with disabilities isn't something I'm afraid of anymore. I know that each and every child God chooses to bless Brandon and I with will be a perfect gift. 

"There is no fear in love. But perfect love drives out fear..."
1 John 4:18

Saturday, March 28, 2015

My Time as a Stay-at-Home-Wife: Blessing or Burden?

I graduated from law school in May of 2013 and began a year long federal clerkship the following September. It was a prestigious position that I enjoyed, but it also confirmed my thoughts that while I felt God had called me to law school, practicing law wasn't in my future. As my clerkship drew to a close, Brandon and I made the decision to make the move to Minnesota. At that point, we decided that because back surgery was looking like an option, and we were facing a major transitional period as a couple, it would be best for me to spend some time staying at home.

And so with quite a bit of energy and excitement, I embraced my new occupation as a Stay-at-Home-Wife. 

Because we had just moved to a new place, I frequently got asked what I did for a living - and got quite a few interesting looks when I shared my new role. The majority of people were quite inquisitive - why was I staying home? What were the circumstances? Did we have kids on the way? Could I not find a job? It seemed to be difficult for many people to understand that I was choosing to be a homemaker when I didn't have any children to look after. They viewed my role as a burden, particularly financially, to Brandon.

In reality, the truth was far from that. My time at home was such a blessing to our marriage!

First an explanation:

What I did: cooking, cleaning, grocery shopping, packing, unpacking, decorating, researching churches for us to visit, volunteering, getting involved in our new church community, building relationships, getting paperwork in order after our transfer from Michigan to Minnesota, taking care of the cars, laundry, etc.

What I did not do: Sit at home and watch TV all day, pamper myself, eat out everyday with friends, or spend unlimited amounts of time just laying around.

Because I didn't have any children to look after, I was able to spend my days taking care of our home and running errands - all of the things that had I been working outside the home, would have taken up time after work and on weekends. Instead, Brandon and I were able to spend that time together, engaging in hobbies and volunteer work, and building relationships. 

Yes, financially things were a little bit tighter, but our philosophy has always been to live off 1 income, so the changes weren't that drastic. Furthermore, I was able to really focus on our budget and searching out ways we could cut back and save. Even now that we are a 2-income household, I still use the practices we put into place while I was at home - allowing us to maximize our savings and debt payments.

After 5 months at home I was offered my current job. After a lot of prayer, Brandon and I decided that this was a really good opportunity for me, and that my income would be an asset in saving for down payment and helping us get out of debt faster while we waited for the Lord to bless us with children. It was a hard decision! We both loved having me at home and the calmness and organization it brought to our marriage. 

At one point Brandon said - "I get it now, this is how it's supposed to be. One person working outside the home, while one person stays home. Everything just runs so much smoother and is less stressful!" 

At the end of the day, it truly doesn't matter what other people think about your occupation. What matters is that as wives, our home and our husbands should be our first priority - our first mission field. I'm not saying that that can't be accomplished when both spouses work outside the home (another post coming on how I've learned to balance things since starting my new job), but I am saying that there are definite benefits to stay-at-home-wifedom!

Friday, March 20, 2015

The Relationship Vacation

No man needs a vacation so much as the person who has just had one.
Elbert Hubbard

When Brandon and I were on our honeymoon, we quickly realized that we like to vacation a little differently. He is a "doer" and I am a "sitter." We've recently concluded that these tendencies are part nature, and part nurture. 

By water = happy Julianne

Brandon is a natural doer. His idea of a relaxing Saturday is accomplishing as many things as humanly possible. In a vacation setting, this equates to a love for being on the move - what can he see, what can he experience, what new foods can he try? He likes to be on the go!

Brandon did some cooking with my uncle on this vacation. While I do most of the cooking at home, my uncle is an incredible chef and amazing teacher!

I have a more introverted personality. While I enjoy experiencing new things, I tend to like to move at a little slower pace, and like to spend more time in one place rather than always being on the go. When I was in late elementary school/middle school, my brothers started working and stopped coming on as many family vacations as they used to. Since it was typically just my parents and me, many vacations were spent with me sitting by a lake/ocean/park with 20-30+ (no joke) books. I loved this.

The boys are back! We were able to spend a couple of days with one of Brandon's best friends and his new wife.

As a couple, we are pretty good at balancing our differences. Brandon brings along some good music and sits in the shade so I can have some downtime, and I'll pack my tennis shoes and get a little more active.

Last week we headed to California to visit some family and friends. More than anything, we've begun to dub this our "social" vacation. It wasn't necessarily the most relaxing, but we had such an incredible time building relationships. We spent hours in deep conversation, enjoyed delicious food, and turned off the TV, our cell phones, and our computers.

We also spent an evening with my college roommate - who I haven't seen in almost 4 years!

Sweet baby Jackson

Although we arrived home physically exhausted and a little talked out (which is a pretty big feat for us!) we both deemed this a wonderful vacation. 

Dinner with a sweet friend (almost-cousin) and my little cousin. This family gives me so much hope for living away from my family and nieces/nephews. They are the family that we live the furthest away from, but are definitely closest to. I'm learning its all about the quality of the time spent together, not necessarily the quantity.

Sunday, March 8, 2015

Who Done It?

A couple of weeks ago Brandon celebrated his birthday. Since he's growing older and becoming more sensitive about his age, I'll just say that he's 8 years older than me (and I'm 26 :)).

Rather than just going out to dinner, I thought it would be fun to mix things up a little bit this year. Especially since this was his first birthday we were celebrating together in his home state (and around some of his best friends). While visiting some friends at the end of January, I mentioned that I had thought it might be fun to throw a Murder Mystery Dinner birthday party for B. They just happened to have thrown a few such dinners themselves and tracked down a kit for me to take home. (Thanks Wachters!)

And that's how I ended up attempting to throw a Luau in subzero temperatures.

The night was a lot of fun and fairly low key. We invited friends we knew would be up for getting into things, and boy did they! We had some pretty creative costumes, including a hair flower made out of a loofah, a socialite all in gold, and a clumsy tourist who wore khaki pants to represent his "tan" legs. Oh the creativity of Minnesotans in winter!

Of course we had to have a "luau" themed meal to go along with things. The menu included:

Pulled Pork Sandwiches
Coconut Shrimp (SO yummy)
Chips and Mango Salsa
Tossed Salad
Peanut M & Ms

Dessert clearly wasn't on point, but it was the birthday boys request, and I was happy to oblige!

I was working with a pretty tight budget, so I went with decorations that were either homemade or from the dollar store. We lit a ton of candles and the mood was efficiently set!

One of the biggest takeaways for me was that this party really showed me that you don't have to have a large or perfect space to entertain. We live in a fairly small apartment and only have a table that seats 4. But with some good food and great company we made it a night to remember!

Saturday, February 14, 2015

Your First Year of Marriage Doesn't Have to be the Hardest

Just a little over a month ago Brandon and I celebrated our first wedding anniversary. Throughout our first year we were frequently asked how things were going, a normal question given our circumstances, but one that was often followed up by "our first year of marriage was so hard!"

There are all sorts of speculations as to what year of marriage is the "hardest" (I've heard 1st, 5th, and 7th fairly frequently), and it obviously depends on the couple, but I wanted to share some tools that I think helped our first year of marriage go by so smoothly.


We worked incredibly hard to be as prepared for marriage as we possibly could (without living together). We hadn't known each other for incredibly long - we dated for 7 months and were engaged for 9, but during the time we dated and were engaged our time together was very intentional. Our entire relationship was long distance until about 4 months before the wedding when Brandon moved to Michigan. Consequently we spent a ton of time on the phone talking about anything and everything. One mistake I think couples can fall into is thinking that just because they've spent a lot of time together, they really know each other. But do you really know someone if you spend a ton of time in front of the TV or at the movies? Or if you are always talking about surface issues? It amazes me how many people I've met who never talked to their spouse about how many kids they wanted to have or what they thought about birth control before they got married.

At one point Brandon and I looked up numerous books and lists on the Internet that made suggestions about topics to discuss before you get married. This was a great resource and one we used during our dating days. Consequently, by the time we started formal marriage counseling 3 months before our wedding, there were really no "surprising" topics that ever came up. Marriage counseling with our pastor and his wife (whose marriage we really admire) was also very helpful as was spending a lot of time talking to our parents about what to expect and how to prepare.


Brandon and I are both realistic people. While we both were SO excited to get married, we also knew that moving in together would require some adjustments. We talked (again a lot of talking!) a lot while we were engaged about what challenges we thought might come up and how we could handle them.

Honesty and Communication

One of the ways in which Brandon and I are really suited for one another is that we have very similar styles of communication. As 2 lawyers, you might guess that at times we probably overtalk things through :) But I love this about us! This has been a huge asset over the last year. When something was bothering one of us (i.e. it drove Brandon nuts that I left closet/cupboard doors open all over the place) we were really good about bringing it up and talking things through, rather than waiting and suppressing annoyances until we burst!

Ladies, please note that I am not saying it is ok to nag your husband about everything that drives you nuts! It is important to let the little things go - and remember that your husband is probably extending you grace in a lot of things you do that he is trying to get used to as well! But if something is truly bothering or hurting you - share it! Don't wait around expecting your husband to read your mind, this will only cause unnecessary frustration on both ends.

Instant Commitment

Brandon was the one to first articulate our commitment as husband and wife - and it completely set the stage for our journey together. Although our marriage has been strong, this past year has not been easy at all from a "life" perspective. One of the biggest challenges we faced was some major family drama only a week after we returned from our honeymoon. During one heated conversation with his family, Brandon firmly stated that it was not "him" and "me" anymore, it was "us," and that he would always be on his wife's side moving forward. 

To see my man take that stance so firmly brought me to tears. Even given all of the pain and frustration of the conversation, it was such a beautiful moment in our marriage. And when differences arose later with my side of the family, it was much easier for me to take the same stance.

Becoming one is not an easy thing to do. But it's essential to a successful marriage - and the earlier you commit to making the practice a priority in your marriage, the better.


Above all else, we both attribute our faith to the strength of our marriage. Our individual relationship with the Lord is the number one priority in both of our lives - followed by pursuing the Lord together as husband and wife. Our faith has pushed us to practice grace with each other, and offer love and respect when it might not be deserved. Our marriage is successful because Christ is at the center of it.


"We love because he first loved us." 1 John 4:19

Thursday, January 22, 2015

Living (and Thriving) as a Single Income Household

When Brandon and I got married (Jan. 2014), we were both working full-time. At that point, our plan was to put as much of our income towards debt as possible. Although we were both working, we really only "lived" on my income (the lower one) to be able to push towards our debt goals. Within 6 months we had paid off both of our cars and my undergraduate student loans - what a great feeling! 

In September my federal clerkship ended and we re-located to Minnesota. At this point, knowing that I had back surgery scheduled, I took a very loose approach to job searching and instead embraced being a stay-at-home-wife (which will get a whole post of its own another day - God truly blessed us with my months at home!). During this period our financial plan switched a little bit - now we really were living off one income, while still putting money towards debt, as well as saving for the medical bills we knew were coming our way.

Next week I'm headed back to working away from home. Again, God showed us his perfect timing and I'm going to be working for a local non-profit. Although we will essentially be a dual income household once again, our plan is to stick with our current budget while setting aside my entire paycheck for savings and a down-payment on a house. Someday, Lord willing, I will stay home with our children, and in the meantime we want to focus on making the most out of this season of dual incomes while still committing to living a one-income lifestyle.

Over the last year we have learned to embrace being a single income household. We have more than we need and have actually had a lot of fun figuring out how to make the most out of the gifts God has given us. 

Here are some of our favorite tips for living and thriving on a single income:

1. Budget

This is a no brainer. Brandon is the budget king in our household. I hate numbers and balancing the checkbook makes me sweat, so he has graciously taken on this task! One thing I have learned (as the primary spender on fluctuating expenses - food, clothes, gas, housing necessities, etc.) is to treat our budget as a max. Instead of thinking, "I can spend x$ on groceries this month" I like to think, "how can I spend less than x$ on groceries this month."

Additionally, continually re-evaluate your budget. After a few months of marriage, Brandon realized we were budgeting more than we really needed to in certain areas. Cutting back allowed us to have a little more wiggle room in other categories, and put more towards savings.

Tip: To make sure I'm sticking to my budget (and make calculations even easier), I like to take my receipts and highlight the items according to category (i.e. food, Julianne, Brandon, gas, household, etc.). This helps me know (and be able to easily see) where our money is going. I have found this to be especially helpful for when I shop at Target, which can often be a bottomless spending pit!

2. Meal Plan

This goes hand-in-hand with budgeting, but it has been such a great tool! Thankfully, my mom was a great example of this, so it was something I started doing from day 1 of our marriage. By meal planning, buying in bulk (yes even for just the 2 of us!), and shopping around the sales/seasons I can easily feed our family for less than what Brandon was spending on food during his bachelor days!

3. Avoid Making Comparisons

While we were engaged (actually even before that), Brandon and I talked a lot about our values and goals for the future. We knew that what was most important to us was living a life serving God and others and raising a family to love and seek the Lord. That mindset directs all of the choices we make for our family - including how we spend the money that God has entrusted us with. 

That said, it can be tough to avoid the "wants" or feeling sorry for yourself when money seems to be tight. Beautiful houses, fashionable clothes, exotic trips - some people just seem to be able to have it all. But if you are going to thrive on a single income - you have to stop comparing. Embrace where you are are what you do have, not what you don't. Focus on investing in things that are "free" - relationships and your spiritual walk.

Tip: I have a really hard time with this at times. One thing I do that helps keep me in check is to limit social media. While I want to be happy for others, jealously surfing through another's exotic vacation pictures isn't helpful when I need to get my heart in check!

4. Creativity

Need something? Is there a way you can get it without going to the store? I'm learning to love buying used, give homemade gifts, and finding out how to repurpose what I already have. 

5. Cheaper isn't Always Better

This is one of those lessons my dad taught me. When it came time to make a medium/large purchase in the Cole household the process was typically (1) research, research, research (2) purchase (3) use purchased item until it literally fell apart! From cars to clothes, I've learned that just because something is cheaper, doesn't necessarily make it a better option. Do your research, read reviews, talk to others, etc. before making a big purchase.

6. Keep Talking

Once a month Brandon and I sit down and go over our budget together. How did we do? Where can we improve? Are their any expenses we need to prepare for for the upcoming month? When we are on the same page, everything flows smoother!

7. Give

No matter what your income is, remember that everything we receive is a gift from above. We are only stewards of gifts that God provides. As stewards, it is biblical that we give a portion of what we have received - to the church and to others (2 Corinthians 9:6-7). Brandon and I have found that when we give back to God first, and with a cheerful heart, blessings abound. 

"No one can serve two masters. Either he will hate the one and love the other, or he will be devoted to the one and despise the other. You cannot serve both God and Money."
Matthew 6:24

Sunday, January 11, 2015

One Year

1 year
12 months
52.17 weeks
365.24 days
8765.81 hours
525949 minutes
31536000 seconds
....and counting!

I truly have the most INCREDIBLE husband. We frequently get asked how our first year of marriage has gone. Truthfully, from a life standpoint, the year has been incredibly difficult - but our marriage has been amazing.

When I had surgery two months ago, I was blown away by Brandon (although I'm not really sure why...). His strength, compassion, tenderheartedness, and sacrificial spirit brought me to tears. 

Every day I just feel so blessed to wake up as Brandon's wife. Even this past week when I woke up in our Minnesota home to negative 10+ temperatures :) There is no where else I'd rather be.

I love you honey! Happy Anniversary!

Thursday, January 8, 2015

Let's Toast and Eat Cake

While I was flipping through some of my old wedding posts, I realized that I had never posted pictures of our reception. Better late than never, so here are a few favorites and highlights - 2 days shy of our 1st anniversary :)

Heading from the wedding to the reception as Mr. and Mrs!

Brandon and I spent a few minutes taking some portrait downstairs in the library and then joined our guests for cocktail hour. This was where our one major snafu came in. We were supposed to have cocktail hour in the lobby downstairs - but a major snowstorm followed by 2 days of unusually warm weather had led to some flooding in the intended space. We were able to flip flop things and used the entrance area to the ballroom instead (which was where I had wanted to be all along, so things ultimately worked out just fine :)).

Oh the cake. 3 days before the wedding we realized we didn't have a cake stand. Well, actually we knew all along that we didn't have a stand, but I think it was about 3 days before that I finally realized the perfect stand wasn't going to magically appear. I was too frugal to shell out the $100 our cake place wanted to rent a cake stand so my mom spray painted a box at (literally) the last minute. I wasn't the biggest fan of the finished product (I feel like it would have worked a little better if the cake had been square), but hey, it served it's purpose.

This gives you an idea of how the room was set up - we had about 170 guests split between either side of the ballroom with room for dancing/the cake in the middle. There was a small stage opposite where the head table was where our DJ and his equipment/lighting set up. There was also a grand piano that we used for background music during the cocktail hour....which no one could hear (a downside of having to relocate at the last minute since there was a piano downstairs we were planning on using and the sound would have been much better).

Instead of waiting to do our first dance later on in the evening, as soon as our guests were seated and our wedding party announced, we did our first dance and cut the cake. We attempted to waltz to Ashokan Farewell (neither of us are dancers at all :)). Brandon was fully in charge of music choices and Ashokan has always been a favorite of his, plus to make it a little extra special, it was the first song we ever danced to!

When our wedding party was announced, we had them come in and make a semi circle in front of the stage area where the DJ was. This covered up the DJ for pictures :) and made for a fun atmosphere to have our first dance in - surrounded by the ones we love so much.

The final step before dinner was served was my dad's toast and prayer. This picture is one of my absolute FAVORITES. I love how I am watching the two most precious men in my life share an embrace.

As for dinner itself - we had a served menu of salmon, stuffed chicken, and a vegetarian option. When talking about a menu option with your vendor be sure to ask about the difference between plated and a buffet. I was convinced during a buffet would be less expensive, but at our reception hall it wasn't at all! So we went with plated, which, in my opinion is a more elegant option and was ultimately a better fit for our intended ambience  (we did a black-tie optional dress code for the evening).

My OCD kicks in a litte here. This is the guest book table at the reception and those vases (filled with Christmas ornaments and glass beads) were supposed to have the ties facing backwards... 

A table commemorating our grandparents.

This was a little seating area in the cocktail space. One of the ways we saved on decorations at the reception was by having our wedding coordinator move many of the decorations we used at the ceremony over the the reception hall - including the sign you see above the fireplace.

Sidenote - if you have a last minute change (like we did with our cocktail hour space), don't be afraid to ask what your vendor can do to accommodate the inconvenience. Our reception hall moved seating, added uplights and additional high top tables, etc. to make up for the relocation.

So we did play one game at the reception. When people started clinking glasses we had our DJ draw a name from a fishbowl full of married couples names. The married couple then had to demonstrate how an experienced couple kisses and Brandon and I would recreate the kiss. In actuality, our DJ had a list of preselected names of couples we knew who would be comfortable participating :) Above is our Master and Mistress of Ceremonies kiss (notice Jamie is pretty much horizontal) and below is our attempted recreation in my limiting wedding dress!

I wasn't going to let a wedding dress limit me from some cuddles from this cutie!

This was another kiss recreation where the wife's shoe had gone flying into another guests lap (a few tables over!). I just too my shoe off first.

After dinner our best man and matron of honor gave their speeches - and then my oldest brother got up and surprised us with an incredibly heartfelt toast.

Which made me cry :)

One last minute addition we made to the reception hall space was adding some uplighting. We just went with a candlelight color to warm up the large ballroom and it really came out nicely.

Father-daughter dance to My Little Girl.

Mother-Son dance.

Love those parents of mine!

We did homemade hot-chocolate as our favor for the evening. We figured the evening needed some law tie-in, so we decorated the table with a bunch of our old law school books and this fun light we borrowed from a friend. Earlier in the evening this was the table that held the escort cards.

I just wish would could go back and do it all again! I know I'm bias, but it really was the perfect night!